** will be home sooner **

Yay! 31st August, me and Ulysses's MAS flight back to KK. He'll slept over at MALBA's hse den the next day back to Sandakan. hmmmm.. brabis laa he mkn buah2an maa durg mami n my nephs oso wif ma nieces, mebel.. dessss.. ada laa yg buncet perut.. hilalaa.. inda dpt ku bygkan.. apa2 pun.. ada barang hawt sdg menunggu saya d Sabah~! Gadaman~ Yoyon~ Doremon~ You guys berhutang dgn dy 1 benda tuu~ haha~ countin' days to go~!!

**i'm stucked and blanked**

see baah, urus itu yg mo pos pg sabah n perak, plus mo urus d MUCH neh, per'quit'an sy, i'm stucked and blanked for a min. i dunno what shud i do first. bnyak suda masa terbuang just like that without nothing. stupid oh. argghhh!! tulaa ko may, pemalas.. ular sawa.. kuat tidur.. hei naa skrg ko pndi2 laa pikir sndiri aa may.. innerself sy ckp mcmtuu tp indatau laa, knp manusia dicipta pndi membuat pelbagai alasan.. pelbagai jenis kemalasan.. pelbagai jenis100000x... baaah.. pandai2 laa ko may..

**life gets kinda boring now**

sedang mengurus per'quit'an sy drpd kolej buduh ini.. dan sementara mengurus sy meng'apply' ipta lain such as itu uitm, upsi, unitar @ sidma saaaana sabah and kemas.. wow.. indatau mana satu yg dapat.. sy cuma anuu sj laa.. berserahh!! (kunun) hmmm.. baru sj suru durg daddy beli bitara id saana bsn tamparuli utk upsi.. aish.. life's gettin more harder and tougher i guess.. susahnyaa.. mo print itu ini, copy-paste bla-bla-blaa and then fax-fax-faxxx.. pastu pos-pos-possss.. aduhhh.. sakitnya kpala.. malasnya berjalan.. malasnyaaa.. panasnyaaaa.. tp demi masa depan, sy terpaksa dengan rela hati.. hmmmmphh. mo tingu muvi lpas buat tuu suma pun mcm indada mud.. haits.. harap2 segalanya boleh beres dalam 2 minggu ini.. then boleh balik homeland dengan senang hati suda.. tinggal menunggu panggilan lg sementara menjaga anak2 buah sy yg mcm kara d rumah.. panjat sana.. panjat cne.. indalaa ku tau mcmana.. sblum msuk study suda butak mangkali.. ooo my my Godddddd~

c karaaa gulandon... nta dr planet mana neh kuat betul memanjat.. dr planet of apes kali..

** in love with new hair **

new style babe :)

Man's Best Friend :)

These are my sister's pets. Whole family of mine like dogs so much :)

There's one day that my dad was reversing his car and he didn't notice that a puppy is under his car, sleeping. He recognize that he had stepped on the puppy when the puppy screams but it's too late to save it. So my mum, my big brother, and my nephews who heard the sound of the puppy ran to the scene and mum cries. She call my sister(in the picture) who is at Telupid, and my sister almost wanna cry hearing that news. From that day, my dad became more careful when he wanna reverse his car.

My sister didn't get any name for them yet :)

My sister's little princess with the pupp :)

The women with pink color shirt in the picture is my sister, holding one of her dogs. And the man is her husband with kid and puppy :)

There's many more but only this for today. Thanks for viewing! :)

i QUIT~

I'm quitting from MUCH college. And I'm waiting for the UNITAR's (Universiti Tunku Abdul Razak) offer at Sabah. I apply for Foundation in Management and Diploma in Early Childhood Education. Once I'd apply and i was accepted in Kolej Yayasan Melaka but I didn't ask to go. I got Dip in Early Childhood Edu under UNITAR but mom & dad didn't wan't me to go there because it's too far they said. So I'm just following the orders. So back then I try to apply at UNITAR Sabah but i don't know whether I was accepted or what. But I'll just wait patiently and see.

MUCH Cheras.

Kolej Yayasan Melaka

SIDMA Campus (UNITAR)

Upset Oh :(

My pendrive 8G (purple) was missing. I love that pendrive :( I hope the person who found it is not a bad one. *upset*

Sabah I Cannot Wait To be Back~

Oh how i miss my homeland~ i miss my mom n dad, i miss my nephews and my nieces, i miss my dogs, puppies and the smell of my own bed~ gosh! i can't tell how much i misses them! but the sad thing is, i'm gonna leave my Ulysses here, at KL, alone. He's working so what can i do then? We'll surely meet again :) but i don't know when is the time~ hmmmmm.. This choice made by dad so what can we do? I'm just following the orders. Who am I to 'lawan' him kan. :) wanna be a good daughter and you know that very well right? :) So, do take care of yourself when i'm not here :) i miss you neither you are in front of  me :)

EMINEM :) (iLOVEeminem)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

(Intro)

Yeah, It's been a ride...
I guess I had to go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you might still be in that place
If you're trying to get out, just follow me
I'll get you there

(Verse 1)

You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay 'em
But you won't take this thing out these words before I say 'em
Cause ain't no way I'm let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say 'em or do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up, if a thing's stopping me
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts don't try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he's still shit'n
Whether he's on salary, paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shit's his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a fuck you for christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he's got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and fuck the universe

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

(Verse 2)
Ok quit playin' with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap
I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuck your feelings, instead of getting crowned you're getting capped
And to the fans, I'll never let you down again, I'm back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let's be honest, that last Relapse CD was "ehhhh"
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground
Relax, I ain't going back to that now
All I'm tryna say is get back, click-clack BLAOW
Cause I ain't playin' around
There's a game called circle and I don't know how
I'm way too up to back down
But I think I'm still tryna figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't
This fucking black cloud still follow's me around
But it's time to exercise these demons
These motherfuckers are doing jumping jacks now!

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

(Bridge)

And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now

(Verse 3)

It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly I probably did it subliminally for you
So I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through
And don't even realise what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they can do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My world, haters can make like bees with no stingers, and drop dead
No more beef flingers, no more drama from now on, I promise
To focus soley on handling my responsibility's as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and raise it
You couldn't lift a single shingle on it
Cause the way I feel, I'm strong enough to go to the club
Or the corner pub and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I'm raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I'm too busy gazing at stars, I feel amazing and

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

 

+ i just need rest +

I feel so restless. I just wanna rest after doing and creating and thinking about what should i write and post on my blog. Can someone give me a piece of idea??? I guess none because I still have no friend and still no followers. Nevermind, I'll just wait patiently and silently until someone shows. haha! ok guys. I'm gonna go now. See ya! FOLLOW ME! :D

Princess Nurul Izzah :)

She's my sister's princess. My princess also. Cute isn't she? :)

This is Puteri Nurul Izzah. She is my brother's daughter but been take care by my sister and her husband. So this kid is officially theirs. She loves to play with pets especially dogs. She's cute! Believe me! :)

If I Were A Boy~

If I were a boy

even just for a day

I'd roll out of bed in the morning

and throw on what I wanted and go

Drink beer with the guys

and chase after girls

I'd kick it with who I wanted

and I'd never get confronted for it 

cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy

I think I could understand

How it feels to love a girl

I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her

Cause I know how it hurts

When you lose the one you wanted

Cause he's taking you for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy

I would turn off my phone

Tell everyone it's broken

so they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I’d put myself first

and make the rules as I go

Cause I know that she’ll be faithful,

waiting for me to come home, to come home.

If I were a boy

I think I could understand

How it feels to love a girl

I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her

Cause I know how it hurts

When you lose the one you wanted

Cause he's taking you for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back

Say it's just a mistake,

think i'd forgive you like that

If you thought I would wait for you

you thought wrong

But you're just a boy

You don't understand

and you don't understand, ohhhh

How it feels to love a girl

Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her

You don't care how it hurts

Until you lose the one you wanted

Cause you're taking her for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy~

Counting days to be back to Sabah the land below the wind~*

Goodbye Kuala Lumpur, hi Sabah! Finally I'll be back!

Sabah's Flag.

The Kadazans are an ethnic groups to the state of Sabah in Malaysia. They are found mainly on the west coast of Sabah, the surrounding locales, and various locations in the interior. Due to similarities in culture and language with the Dusun ethnic group, and also because of other political initiatives, a new unified term called "Kadazan-Dusun" was created. Collectively, they form the largest ethnic group in Sabah.

At 4093.4 meters, most people claimed that Gunung Kinabalu is the highest mountain in South East Asia. Even the British television claimed that it is the highest, quoted during the 1997 Kinabalu International Climbathon televised preview, where they've got the top three places.

Oh! How i can't wait to go back to the place where i called 'home'. I miss everything about Sabah. Everything!! :)

How To Preserve A Union (hey, this doesn't only applied to married couple okay?!)

    5 Tips For Long Lasting Relationships

Dating and marriage is different than it was twenty years ago. Today, more than 50% of all marriages fail for one reason or another. Just thinking about that makes "commitment" seem scary. It seems that when relationships are faced with challenges, people quit trying. Dating is more like a marathon, trying to date as many people as possible, instead of taking time to get to know someone at a deeper level. For married couples, divorce is not biased. Whether married for thirty years or eight months, the outcome can be the same.

The fact is that relationships, whether dating or married, are hard. Things do not always go perfectly, fighting does occur, and it takes a 100% commitment from both parties to make it a success. Often when people break off a relationship, they feel as though something is missing. The "spark" has gone, leaving one or both people feeling inadequate and unfulfilled.

There are hundreds of things you can do to better your relationship. To help get you headed in the right direction, we have chosen 5 ways to build, strengthen, and enhance your relationship.

1. Start Over

When couples first get together, everything is new and exciting. They overlook the little annoying things the other person does. However, after time, the nagging starts, instead of hearing, "You look beautiful," they might hear "Why are you wearing that shirt?" If this sounds like your relationship, first, the two of you need to sit down and be honest that things have changed. Identify the things each of you did in the beginning of the relationship that created the attraction in the first place.

Then together, make a commitment to start over. The truth is, both of you will have to work on this. It will not automatically be easy but it is possible. Start by forgiving each other, forgetting the past, and then start over with the flirtation. Focus only on the special things your mate does and relearn to put the unimportant things aside. It will take some time so be patient

2. Schedule Time

Spending quality time together is crucial. This time can be with friends, dining out, attending a sporting event, or cuddling together while watching a favorite movie. The activity is not what is important but the fact that you are together, doing something that you both enjoy. People have extremely busy schedules and between work, family, the home, errands, and everything else going on, finding time for your mate can be difficult. Just as you would schedule a meeting on your calendar, show some courtesy in the relationship by scheduling time with each other. Once the plan is in place, no backing out unless you have some life and death emergency.

3. The Power of Touch

When a child is ill, doctors will tell you that it is proven that a simple, loving touch of a parent can quickly pull the child through a crisis. It is the same for relationships. Playing with your mate's hair, rubbing their hand, a soft kiss on the neck, a soft pat on the leg or giving a gentle back rub will make a huge difference in how your mate responds to you.

When was the last time you walked up to your mate for no reason and without saying a word, affectionately placed a kiss on their neck? This is not in a sexual way, but an affectionate way. There is a difference. The next time the two of you are sitting in the car, at the grocery story, or standing in line at the theater, quietly reach over and take their hand. Do not be surprised if you get a strange look of curiosity the first time!

4. Surprise

If you and your mate have scheduled some time for a Friday night dinner, put together a surprise instead. For example, if your mate loves professional wrestling, buy some tickets near the front or if they like concerts, purchase the tickets ahead of time, getting the best seats possible. When Friday night comes around, insist on driving and head toward the location where the event is taking place. When asked where you are going, simply answer, "I have a surprise for you. I know you love professional wrestling so I purchased two great seats for tonight's performance," or "I know we had planned on going to dinner, but I wanted to surprise you with something special. I purchased tickets to see one of your favorite groups in concert." The idea of you getting the tickets for something THEY like and then keeping it as a special surprise will touch the heart!

5. Needed Space

As important as it is to spend quality time together, it is equally important to give each other time to do something they like. If your mate loves to fish but you have no desire to bait a hook with little, slimy worms, or if you like to go to the casino but your mate would rather do something different, encourage each other to take time apart. Try establishing a set time for this very purpose, if possible. For example, perhaps you could determine that every other Friday night is "singles" night. This is not a time to date other people, but to enjoy preferred activities. Remember that you have to place trust in your relationship. If you try this and then drill them, to see what they did, whom they were with, and where they went, then the exercise has failed.

++ HUSBAND-WILL-BE ++

That guy in the picture is my husband-to-be.. He's the one who completed me. He the who brings me back to the right pattern of the road when i was wrong. He's the one.. He's everything that i can ask for, the most perfect mate i have, my bestfriend, my lover, my gossip pal, and most important one, he's the angel that God has sent to me <3

him <3

He is a pharmacist-to-be :)

There he is with his housemates a.k.a schoolmates :) the one on his left is his bestfriend since they are 13 years old..

His name is Rene Ulysses Hanis. Born on 22nd of May 1988 at Hospital Duchess of Kent, Sandakan. He is the first child in his family and he has 6 more siblings under him. His hobbies are playing the guitar, rugby and reading. He has interest in history especially about wars. I dont know why he loves history and i hates it! haha.. He hates to be pushed or force to do something. Let him do on his own. He loves to try something new. I hate it when he did! But that's him and I can't and don't want to change him to be what i wants. Let him be himself. He loves his family. He is a quiet type but dont try him. When he feels angry, he rather be quiet than speak to others. But sometimes he did tell his parents or his bestfriend and if i were there, I am the one who will be the 'prey'. He's sensitive! You can see him act like a small kid when you are with him. What I can say, he's 50-50 matured. HAHA!! Sorry darling :)

 Yes as you see, this is him. Eat and eat and eat until he becomes fat! He cannot stand seeing unfinished food on the table. If he did, he'll take your plate and finished it. He says that it is the rule in his family. "MUST FINISH FOOD". And yes, he always clean my plate when we had dinner or something. I called him the "stomach-vacuum". HAHA! :D

Just a little girl called May :)

Hi! I was given the name from the month i was born, May, and from the joyfulness of my familly, Joy-ce. So my name is May Joyce. I was born on 25th May 1991. I'm 19 years old officially this year. On the left is the picture when i was 1 year old. 1992.

oh that's me on the right and i was sleeping! :)

This is me enjoyed eating cake at my uncle's house from Philiphines.
Im sitting on his table, grabbing a fork with cream cake, that's yummy! :)

Yeah.. That's me celebrating my sister's birthday.. Actually im 'celebrating' the cakes and the ice creams!

Haha! There's my nephews! Jordan Hillary@Jojo and Ronnie@Onie. They're my sister's kids :)

Jojo was born on 03rd March 1993 while his brother, Onie, was born on 10th October 1994. Since we was a kid, we always stick together like brothers and sisters. We shared our shirts and pants and foods and everything together. I wish we could share everythings now like we used to do the old times. Time passed and we're all grown ups..

This is my nephew with his great grandfather from his mom's(my sister) side. This picture was taken when he was 2 years old.I dont know if he recognize this now because it has been a long-long time ago and i don't think that he will fill his head with those old memories..but deeply i hope he will remember this :) My grandpa, late Gunting Dawayan, was born on 1922. He died on the age of 79.. i missed him so much from the day he passed away until now...may he rest in peace with the angels and all the good peoples up there...

They're my beloved nephews! Jojo & Onie, playing with fire :)

This is my nephew, Jojo, when he was 6 years old. He joined body building at his school and i guess that he did'nt win. Ahh i dont know actually whether he wins or not because it seems like all the kids in that picture are all the same size like him :D (i'm sure he'll be embarassed looking this picture but i don't care! HAHA!)

Me and my nephew enjoyed swimming in a small river at our farm. Yes we did! :)

This picture is not very clear. I'm sorry guys. In this picture, there is my dad a.k.a my nephews grandpa in front of the church. Later i will show you how my dad looks :)

Oh yeah, we're cute aren't we?? :D

Yeah, and I'm the leader! :D

Ready to school! A bit tomboyish look i have right? haha :)